Domesticated

Maybe I am just becoming too domesticated. My first pride was the year I came out, and that was in London. That was amazing. Then of course Denver's for a couple years, & the pilgramige to Mecca... San Fran's Pride. Now, I haven't been in a couple years. Too me it just seems like the same thing every year. Topless lesbiens, oiled up porn stars. Booth after booth of people wanting you to buy some useless trinket. I know they have their place, but not for us anymore. This is what we spent our weekend doing:



So, like I said, maybe we've just become too domestic... but at this point in my life, it's exactly where I want to be.

The Grass is always Greener

Ok, I know the title sound like it's going to be a bad thing...but it's actually quite literal. Deb and I (as well as her oft'gone boyfriend..by her choosing) installed sod all week at the house. It looks so much better then the weed crop we had in the front and the dirt farm in the back. ;-) The finishing touches on the house are really coming together. I am so hopeful that we will be able to buy it when the time comes.

There was a huge lightning display to the east on my way to work tonight. Big billowing clouds and non-stop lightning between them. It really got me thinking, how something can be so dangerous yet so beautiful at the same time. That even in the most difficult, trying times in our life there is a beautiful side to find.

more to come

Haven't been updating as much, as the title says more to come soon, I promise. :)

Addiction, Control, Pain
Fear, Loss
Falling, Sinking, Drowning

One day at a time

Getting over not taking the position out in Junction. I really wanted it..but what are you going to do? I don't want to be one of those people that puts career ahead of family and end up with no family at the end.

I had an interesting conversation with Cliff today. He has been covering for another hotel out in Grand Junction, which is about 3.5 hours west of here. They've officially offered him the hotel with a substantial raise, and he told me tonight he wants to bring me onboard as a revenue manager ASAP. This would mean going from a $10.50 and hour position, to a $27,000 a year position plus bonuses.

If I were single, I would be on the road tonight....lol. However, Jeff still has a year left of school and I know how much he loves it here...although since he's going into Wildlife Management he could basically work anywhere in Colorado. ;)

So, when he calls me this morning, I am going to discuss it with him. It's one of those things where you have to choose what is the higher priority, which isn't really fair. Although, there are options, I mean we could live apart for a year, and visit on weekends and days off. I mean after 9 years, I think we could probably handle that, but who knows?

Your power is: The ability to fly

Explanation: This powers speaks pretty
much for itself. Though you don't need wings
for this power,you can fly anyway. Some people
may consider it as telekinesis since they can
also fly, but you can't make material things
move like they can. This ability could be a
relaxing activity when you want to get away
from everyday troubles. Also it is good when
sneaking upon an enemy since it makes no sound.
When going over to the "dark side"
the power could be used to harrass and break
into building through windows etc.
You are quite similar to this power since you
like to have your head in the clouds.
Supernatural things amuse while ordinary life
does not. If your daydreaming has gotten a
little too far you might be zooned out all the
time, even when you are having a conversation.
Your desires and/or goals tend to be
unrealistic even if you know those would
probably never happen. Travelling is something
you would be interested in doing since seeing
exotic scenery fits with your fantasies of
escaping your plain life. You can also have
some creative ability (writer, playing an
instrumen etc) that interests you.
Negative aspects: The whole reason you
may be escaping life could be fear of being let
down by it. So if that would come to happen,
and an important dream had been crushed you
could get depressed.

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You are a white dragon, pure and noble, you would
help humans if they desprately need you. YOu
are kind and wise with a heart of gold.


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one of those days

You ever have one of those days? I couldn't find my keys at work so I ended up calling locksmith who had to bust into my car, and make a new key for me. That was $40. Then I had to basically break into my own house, since that key was on the keychain. Once I got back to work tonight; I found them they had somehow fallen way behind one of the computer shelves, which is why I didn't see it this morning, so that was basically a wasted $40. Got in a fight with Jeff, cuz I should have called him to see if he had any ideas, which looking back now sounds like a good idea, but this morning I didn't want to seem like some helpless kid. But, yeah it was a doozy of a fight...it's amazing how those things just build upon themselves untill you are fighting over things that happend 6 years ago.

Today is my officiall 4 month test...the gold seal...keep your fingers crossed for me. :)