Jeff left for the first part of his project on Weds. This one is in Southern Colorado. He's going to come back on Friday, after his Dad works on the car. We got a notice from the dealer that we were supposed to replace the timing belt at 60k miles and we are at 72k, so it's about time I suppose.
This is going to be the big test if I can be a good boy. Sometimes I wonder if I have an addiction, and my poison just happens to be sex. I mean i the past I acted just like an addict, I snuck around, I lied, I would indulge myself, then feel tremendously guilty afterwards. Then you have these guys that I have chatted with that have long-term relationships and their partners have no idea that they are screwing around, and it doesn't seem like it even phases them. Do they not feel the guilt I do? Then again, if I truly felt guilty why did I do it so many times?
Currently Listening to: Hope Has a Place from the album "The Memory Of Trees" by Enya
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I know that you truly love him and that you don't want to do anything to hurt what you worked so hard to gain, and you so strongly deserve. I know that you can make it through and hang in there stronger than before. You have the power, babe...you just need to find it. Hugs and much love from your lil' friend cross-country.
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